MO MONEY or NO MONEY pt3

(This is a continuation of the series “MO MONEY OR NO MONEY”… I recommend you read from “Part 1″, to get a full perspective on the experience I am writing about…)

Now we are staying with a good friend that I met a few years back, and it is a cool place. It is also about a mile from a major shopping center and public transportation, which makes travel a challenge because there are no sidewalks on the way to the bus.  The hospital that my fiance just started working is an hour away and we no longer own a car. This is also a challenge because without a major credit card, a car rental actually cost more up-front and we have to purchase the insurance. It took our last bit of money along with a few dollars from a friend to make this happen.

I have some physical conditions that require surgery and attention, and a few conditions I have had for many years and was never able to get the correction because none of my employers offered insurance. Even in emergency scenarios, you have to “qualify” for treatment in most cases that are not life threatening but at the same time debilitating. These are all points that depend upon having money to resolve them. In other words, those who have money and can extract it from the masses, win. I learned in MLM a long time ago, that the way to make real money is not to get lots of money from a few people, but to get a small amount from everyone. This has been in practice for centuries in this current money system. Money is required to maintain ourselves within this system because it was created by money. I have now understood how important having money in this system is to supporting myself and continuing my process within this physical reality. In the “B-LIE-ble” it teaches to always give, and you should receive. Does this system work this way? No!… The ones who give only lose money and the one’s who take only gain money, but most people want to be a money taker, thus we have a system of “consumerism” where everything is being used up and turned into wealth. There is an end to this and it’s not one that we would like to see.

So in my conclusion, I have shared some recent experiences that show how the lack of money in this system affects all of us equally within our daily lives and our ability to support ourselves physically. No one knows when or if they will face a similar scenario as we have, but we are still here and breathing, and I also realize many are experiencing these things and worse, but have no voice or means of sharing it… I am also speaking for them as all as one as equal until no one is left out of the equation of life… 1+1=2 Equality For All within and as an EQUAL MONEY SYSTEM!

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MO MONEY or NO MONEY pt2

(This is a continuation of the series “MO MONEY OR NO MONEY”… I recommend you read from “Part 1”, to get a full perspective on the experience I am writing about…)

Now that we have been disqualified for housing, we have to leave the shelter. We then applied for public welfare, which I always thought the city had some of the best public assistance available anywhere. We were told that in order to receive this assistance, we had to be in a drug program, or taking mental meds, etc. This turned out to be a dead end and we had to sit and decide that LGA was the best place to go, so we went and slept in the food court with the travelers who had lay-overs. It is expensive to eat at airports and wifi is not free. I felt as if everything I did was to no avail and every dollar we had was being sucked away by a massive systematic vacuum. There were other people there that had been sleeping in the airport for some time, and it becomes extremely difficult to maintain a level of hygiene we are used to. I borrowed money from a friend to assist us in finding shelter, room, etc. At the end of a week, I called some friends in the Bronx who I hesitated to call previously because of the amount of kids, but I called to arrange a shower for us, and afterwards they offered us to stay with them for a while. After 2 months there, and my fiance had been volunteering at a Manhattan hospital, there was still no positions offered to her.

We bought bus tickets (Chinatown), to go back south to get our things out of storage, and we were staying 2 weeks only. After arranging an interview at a hospital here in the south, my fiance got an interview a few days before we were to return to NY and was offered a position. So we decided to stay in the south for now but our important things are in the city and some are here.  My fiance is now working as an RN here at a lower pay scale, and we have to get a car which we sold right before going to NY. So in most scenarios, one spends more money in the south than in NYC because we don’t need a car in the city and maintenance and gas will eat up a large portion of that.

Regardless of any negative experiences that anyone has, it all comes down to “Money”, that gives us temporary access to the basic necessities of life and when the money is gone, the access is revoked…. But why is money the medium that determines if I and my fiance have our basic needs for survival met? How have we designed a system that “Life” itself comes after “Money”? It is obvious that those with an abundance of money refuse to do what is best for all, but only do what suits them and the ones that have interest in banking. If we have “NO MONEY” should we not eat and have no right to survive? If they have “MO MONEY” should they over eat and have a right to all earths resources without limit?

Will continue next post…

MO MONEY or NO MONEY pt1

The manifested Energy of the mind equal to Money of the physical reality…. MO money! The “M” as a saw waveform “Cuts” off the majority of beings and animals from living a life free of fear and poverty, and “Cuts” down trees and plant-life, to make “MOre MONEY” so the few can live lavish and the majority sweat to survive while at the same time supporting the few to live lavishly. I am sharing my experience within the last 6 months in parts, to show how this current money system affects us and what needs to change this unequal system to an “equal money system”.

In October 2012, after my fiance graduated nursing school, she and I were relocating back to New York City, to work as a Registered Nurse, and I to produce music to market online etc. and do computer tech work. We packed and traveled, to the city where the place we had to stay fell through the day before we arrived. After a few hotels and other prospects, we found a temporary place through a friend of mine. We agreed to 2 months stay, which at that time we figured it could be adequate time to get a nurse position. After a couple of days settling in, hurricane Sandy welcomed us back and basically flipped the city and surrounding areas on its side. There was massive devastation in lower Manhattan and Jersey etc. We were on the hill in Harlem (uptown), so we didn’t get flooded or lose power. When public transportation finally started moving days later, we took a ride downtown and to Brighton Beach Brooklyn and saw the beach residues in the streets and shops without power etc., everything was different, like a third world country in some areas. Within this, several hospitals in the city had shut down and patients and staff were moved to other hospitals that could take on this level of emergency. Suddenly it became the most inconvenient time to get a nurse position in any hospital because everything just froze and nurses who lost their homes and were displaced were more a priority that a new nurse looking for work.

Now our money is running low and nothing is materializing, so at the 2 month point, we went into the shelter system really believing that we could get assistance to get on our feet. We learned the system quick that it is not what it seems, and because we didn’t have certain addictions and disorders, we were considered unqualified for further assistance after the 10 day initial shelter stay. I could not get medicaid before I went into the shelter system, I was told I could not get financial clearance… WTF!!!

Will continue next post…

Day 11 – DARKNESS TO LIGHT

Have you ever heard someone say “If you only knew what I was thinking…”Many of us are quick to say that we don’t know what another is thinking and later or even in the same breath, we sum up a persons whole life based on one point that we engaged in with them. Most people have a dying need to be right, as right only exists in our created bubble of existence inside our minds, that we give life to as if it was a physical glass of water that when we drink it, we are refreshed and hydrated.

The same goes with all of our creations as well. Now playing across America and the world are seemingly random murders by shooting or stabbing etc., and everyone is pretending to be caring individuals based on who dies in a specific tragedy. What is amazing and fucked up simultaneously, is that people claim that they don’t understand what is going on and how people can do such evil crimes. What we see and hate so much is the reflection of ourselves and the projected anger towards these “EVIL” people because we know we never stood up to investigate the policies in our own countries that we knew were only in place to feed the wealth of the rich while taking from the masses. The USA has implemented many policies and laws that support abuse of certain people such as slavery, banking, credit, interest rates, women not allowed to vote, imminent domain, and the list goes on. We have always had complaints but because we are a “FREE” country, we accepted these policies as the norm and as long as we were comfortable and had a little money, fuck everyone else who got the shit deals of the system.  When we allow ourselves to participate in a system that does not support everyone equally, we are not understanding that what is allowed to harm one, is allowed to harm all including self. These atrocities that we are facing is the result of all of us allowing this system to exist and closing our eyes to it to not see, and turning our heads and covering our ears to not hear, and moving to the quietest places we could find to not have to engage what we know is fucked up in hope that it will disappear from our personal reality and world. Everything we have tried to avoid, ignore, sweep away, condemn, judge, and what we “FEAR” is quickly making haste to visit us! We will either all eventually enjoy a system that supports every living thing equally, or we will all eventually despise a system that we all suffer within.

12/21/2012???? What the fuck about it? Does it mark the date when humanity will wake the fuck up and stop the bullshit with how we treat each other, to creating a new world where all have the freedom to live and express life equally without “FEAR”?… Or does it mark the date when humanity has crossed the point of no return to only plunge to the utter depths of insanity, hate, fear, and abuse? We choose!

Day 10 – SPIRITUAL SMOKE

During this lifetime, how many times have we had some very difficult times, and when someone asks how we are doing, we tell them and they say… “Just trust in god, and keep the FAITH, he will make everything work out!” Then you see them a little while later in the year or whatever, and they ask if everything is working out. Then we tell them “No, it is not working out for me…”, and suddenly they have to go meet someone or they are late to a meeting or the store, or whatever. The fact is that if god had allowed us to suffer hardship for a significant amount of time, what would make god suddenly have compassion for us now? Where was god during the holocaust, or ww1, or the Tuskegee Experiment, ww2, Vietnam, 911, the tsunami in the far pacific, or Katrina, or Sandy which I experience myself, or when Trayvon Martin was killed, or Mr Ki-Suck Han when after being pushed off a subway platform, was killed by a train while people watched?

Questions arise more and more about the state of the world and this invisible deity called “GOD” (by many other names as well), but no real answers! Two- thousand years and climbing… the same shit that was going on then is going on now. The truth is that god is never around when tragedy hits! When will humanity realize the suffering in this world is completely caused by people, and can be ended by people. Is it going to take everyone on the planet to be in total misery until we wake up and realize WE are the ones responsible for the condition of the earth and stand up in our misery to change self and take responsibility. I have heard many people say including myself, that if I had the money and power, I would change the way people live for the better. Well the ones that have the money and power refuse to do shit, except continue trying to get more money and use the working class to get it.

Every week people line the seats of synagogues, mosque, churches, cathedrals, etc., and it amounts to nothing when the same things happen week after week. God has never ended murder, he has never ended starvation, rape, kidnapping, genocide, poverty, enslavement, abuse, brutality, etc. What the fuck is god’s purpose if he can’t do shit about the place he is believed to have created? If anyone believes that a god is going to save them from this world or after death, you are FUCKED! If we as humanity continue in the direction we are going, we are all FUCKED! SHEEPLE! The iGod… as real as the fruit on a Mac computer! Pray that you escape the coming tragedies that we have created… Hope for the best… Have faith in your god… And when he fails you, I expect the phone lines to be overloaded on 12/22/2012… I can’t wait…

Day 9 – REAL HUMANITARIANS

Today I met with a friend at Au Bon Pain, and after she left, I checked out the vendors at Union Square, then had a bite to eat at Whole Foods, while discussing with my fiancee,  how we are going to support ourselves coming up next month if we don’t have employment. This is a huge concern for us because we all have to be able to stabilize ourselves before we can really participate in assisting ourselves or anyone else. Tons of people are displaced now and still have no power or heat, and its a disaster by any other name. I stopped at a Radio Shack then headed for the subway to go home, and on any given day u see people sitting next to buildings, trying to stay warm and attain some change from passing people. I saw a young guy sitting down, who obviously had met with some type of scenario that he has to be on the street.

On the internet now is an NYPD officer getting praise for buying boots, and PUTTING THEM ON THE FEET OF A HOMELESS GUY WITH NOT SOCKS OR SHOES. It was cold that night and this officer did what he would have wanted for himself, in the moment without thinking about if he should do it or not. What makes this interesting is the support the officer is getting from many people for helping this homeless guy, but almost no one can tell a story of themselves actually doing something when they are able and see someone that needs attention. People say “If there were more people like this officer…”, but who is it going to be? It could be you and me and anyone who has to give. It is amazing how we always wish for shit to just happen but we will not participate ourselves. Its always up to the “OTHER GUY” to do something but we all exist here in this city, and on this planet. I have dropped dollars and even $20 bill on the homeless years ago when I had some money and work etc. I always saw homeless people as myself and I have been homeless and could be facing it again in a few weeks. There is no purpose for anyone to be out in the cold while others watch bullshit on TV in a warm house. I would be willing to trade places with homeless people so they can have at least one decent nights sleep in a warm place. I have experienced being out in the cold riding trains from uptown to downtown, falling asleep in McDonald’s… It is cold tonight, 40 degrees Fahrenheit, and windy.

This is just one reason why we have to put in place a new system so these type of atrocities will end. We take so much for granted everyday when we buy clothes to look good, and eat comfort food while having a personal relationship with our iPhone, that we use to search for a hot date and whatever our self interest can conjure up. It is very unfortunate that this city is quickly adjusting the playing field to eliminate all poor and useless people which include myself and others I know. The way things are headed right now in NYC, it will eventually be international students, asians, and wealthy white people with just enough latinos, and blacks to serve them. Many people hate the truth but have no heart to face it to make a change. Now that poverty has kissed the face of many middle class people, the security and trust that was influenced by having money is now “QUESTIONABLE”. WE ALL HAVE MADE THIS A REALITY! There is noone to blame, just taking responsibility for our individual participation in this current system that only supports capitalism at the expense of the working poor and middle class so the RICH can stay in power.  This POWER can also be used to change the current condition of this world, but this world is only a toy to the elite, who play with economies, religion, education, governments etc., causing many to suffer abuse, death, poverty, sickness, etc. It is easy to feel separated from these things when we are comfortable but we all have and continue to contribute to this current system until we take a definitive stand within ourselves to look and see how we participate in this world and how we can stop ourselves and become responsible, self-honest beings. No easy at all but there is no other option.

Day 8 – Backchat Imaginary Friend

Day 8 – Backchat Imaginary Friend

Whatever I am faced with in my world, I always have this friend who is willing to give me advice, counseling, and knows every fucking reason for whatever is happening at the moment. Most of the time I don’t even ask for any advice or suggestions but I always seem to get it anyway. This friend is not really a friend because I can’t seem to direct myself within common sense without this friend giving me scenarios and what-ifs etc., and there is this sidekick that is always hanging around this so called friend, I asked what’s the name? FEAR it said!

Now I cannot say I have a friend here, as the advice is always related to this fucking sidekick, so it seems Mr FEAR is the one that’s really calling the shots. So now we have to have a meeting and the moderators I invited are “Common Sense”, “Breath”, and the principal “What Is Best For All”. So I am in a room with my moderators and “Backchat”, who never shuts up even when told, and “Mr FEAR” who actually never says much but hangs in the background. With Common Sense, Breath, and WIBFA, I am confident I can eventually handle and direct these guys.

Backchat is always present as voices in the head, and we usually think, these voices are generated by us, but we can’t control or stop them so they are generated by something else. Investigating the source of these voices can assist us in realizing what is the nature of our mind and our participation within it as how we created ourselves as just a mind or personality.

Day 7 – HOW MANY REALITIES

Whenever we have a chance to sit and consider what is going on in our surroundings and within ourselves, if we look honestly, we will see the inconsistencies and fluctuations in our life experience. I understand things change all the time but from the perspective of my experience of myself is what I am referring to. Of all the thoughts and memories that float in our heads daily, which ones do we grab and get personal with? Am I realizing when I pick out a thought to run with it? Do I know how many times a day that I do this shit? I can be so deep into a self created fantasy or backchat that I lose myself in it before I realize I am lost in my mind. How many realities have I created in the space of time that I existed completely within the mind. To become aware of when and what we create would assist us to understand how the mind works. Once we are aware of how the mind works, we can direct ourselves within the principle of “Do unto others as you would have done to you”, which would become what is best for all.

What is amazing, is that with every plan, every plot, every war, every crusade, every pilgrimage, every retreat, we have only created dimensional shifts and have not changed this physical reality into a place where all have dignity, and live without fear. What on this planet is it going to take for humanity to look at itself and see where we are headed and take responsibility for it! If our gods and sages and gurus have not been able to stop the atrocities over eons of time, who would think they could suddenly do it now! What level of calamity and death and destruction and disease have to arrive to get the attention of those that have the power and resources to change the world. How many realities will be created in our minds before we realize the only relevant reality is being destroyed. Humankind is like a suicidal maniac wanting to prove that he can blow him/herself into many pieces.

Day 6 – Human Reactor

Today was a calm day, cool but sunny, and after reading blogs etc. My fiance and I went for a brief walk to hang out in the sun a little bit to balance being in and out. We sat at a park near City College, then slowly made our way back home. As I rested, my fiance was using the computer, when she suddenly went out into hallway for a second, then came back in yelling to me call the Fire Dept… I did so and as I am speaking to 911, my fiance heads out to stairs while I put on jeans and sandals and head out. The smoke on floors 4, 3, and 2 was so thick, visibility and oxygen was zero at one point, and I notice a blaze coming through the trash chute on 1^st fl. I was barely able to talk on phone with 911, until finally getting out the building. As we stand outside with other people and at least 3 ladder engines, they went inside to tame the blaze.

People in the bldg talk about a guy on 6^th fl who traffics drugs and suspected one of his clients put something in the trash chute. Now I am becoming quite furious and reacting with anger that I was willing to go to this person and physically make him want to quit dealing myself. I see kids that were inside and women on fire escapes with their kids, and wonder if it was done purposely or accident, but I knew it could have been a lot more serious.

Tragedy affects any and everyone at times but the question is “Who am I within the tragedy?”

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see/realize/understand that life is not guaranteed within this current system where money is the external manifestation of the internal interest of the mind.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see/realize/understand that because I am here, I am a part of all that exist, the good and bad within this accepted system of polarity that I participate in.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to judge the guy above us, when I also participate in separation from the physical as only an energetic experience called a personality, also disregarding life as I look to support only my own self interest through my survival.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize, that my internal instinct to survive is based in keeping consciousness as myself alive to continue to use up the physical to sustain itself infinitely.

I commit myself to understand who I am as consciousness within this system, and realize how I create the system constantly within my participation in the mind.

I commit myself to realize that good or bad people are only my perspective based on my own pre-programmed set of rules within a system of polarity that does not in fact support life as equal and one.

I commit myself to realize and understand that my instinct to survive is a desire of the mind as me to continue my existence as a personality and no actually interest in supporting life as what is best for all in the physical.

Day 5 – My Physical Body

After relocating back to New York, we experienced challenges with our living arrangements, friends, and life in general. One week and a storm arrives, and the result is extensive damage, and loss for many here and in the tri-state area. We did not experience any outages or flooding, only high winds. As for myself, I now face a minor surgical procedure to be able to function to a level to support myself together with my fiance (an RN), as we look for work and get settled in our own place. The city is in a state of emergency and is going to take a while to resolve the issues of displacement, health, and the new comers to poverty. I am not sure what my physical body is telling me but it seems to have to do with self support. Many years I have over worked my physical body with stressful jobs, including military, and driving across the U.S., and I would say that this stress have only contributed to a part of my physical condition, but I am sure that my participation within and as the MIND is the major cause. I ask myself “Who am I within all that is happening?” I have had some fear about living arrangements but I never stopped searching and physically working at getting settled. I realize that most of what we experience as humans is created based on how we live and treat each other. This storm is not evil, but it shows man how man have designed society based on self interest and money distribution, which promotes poverty and abuse.

 

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to exist within a self-created bubble of thoughts, fears, emotions, feelings, that only contribute to sustaining the mind as personalities which does not support the physical as life.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to through my existence within this self-created bubble, to believe that my experience as thoughts, fear, emotions, feelings, are real and need my participation.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my participation withing the mind, as thoughts, fears, memories, emotions, feelings, do not support me within and as the physical to live here practically in ways that support what is best for all one and equal.

 

I commit myself to work at living here within an as my physical body as within the purpose of finding ways to support myself to live as what is best for all as me.

I commit myself to stop my participation within and as thoughts, fears, emotions, feelings, memories, through focusing on myself as the physical breath as I go about my day.

I commit myself to become aware of my body and mind, so I will understand when I am in the mind creating personalities and dimensions, and be able to stop myself and bring myself back to the realization of self withing the physical.