Day 11 – DARKNESS TO LIGHT

Have you ever heard someone say “If you only knew what I was thinking…”Many of us are quick to say that we don’t know what another is thinking and later or even in the same breath, we sum up a persons whole life based on one point that we engaged in with them. Most people have a dying need to be right, as right only exists in our created bubble of existence inside our minds, that we give life to as if it was a physical glass of water that when we drink it, we are refreshed and hydrated.

The same goes with all of our creations as well. Now playing across America and the world are seemingly random murders by shooting or stabbing etc., and everyone is pretending to be caring individuals based on who dies in a specific tragedy. What is amazing and fucked up simultaneously, is that people claim that they don’t understand what is going on and how people can do such evil crimes. What we see and hate so much is the reflection of ourselves and the projected anger towards these “EVIL” people because we know we never stood up to investigate the policies in our own countries that we knew were only in place to feed the wealth of the rich while taking from the masses. The USA has implemented many policies and laws that support abuse of certain people such as slavery, banking, credit, interest rates, women not allowed to vote, imminent domain, and the list goes on. We have always had complaints but because we are a “FREE” country, we accepted these policies as the norm and as long as we were comfortable and had a little money, fuck everyone else who got the shit deals of the system.  When we allow ourselves to participate in a system that does not support everyone equally, we are not understanding that what is allowed to harm one, is allowed to harm all including self. These atrocities that we are facing is the result of all of us allowing this system to exist and closing our eyes to it to not see, and turning our heads and covering our ears to not hear, and moving to the quietest places we could find to not have to engage what we know is fucked up in hope that it will disappear from our personal reality and world. Everything we have tried to avoid, ignore, sweep away, condemn, judge, and what we “FEAR” is quickly making haste to visit us! We will either all eventually enjoy a system that supports every living thing equally, or we will all eventually despise a system that we all suffer within.

12/21/2012???? What the fuck about it? Does it mark the date when humanity will wake the fuck up and stop the bullshit with how we treat each other, to creating a new world where all have the freedom to live and express life equally without “FEAR”?… Or does it mark the date when humanity has crossed the point of no return to only plunge to the utter depths of insanity, hate, fear, and abuse? We choose!

Day 10 – SPIRITUAL SMOKE

During this lifetime, how many times have we had some very difficult times, and when someone asks how we are doing, we tell them and they say… “Just trust in god, and keep the FAITH, he will make everything work out!” Then you see them a little while later in the year or whatever, and they ask if everything is working out. Then we tell them “No, it is not working out for me…”, and suddenly they have to go meet someone or they are late to a meeting or the store, or whatever. The fact is that if god had allowed us to suffer hardship for a significant amount of time, what would make god suddenly have compassion for us now? Where was god during the holocaust, or ww1, or the Tuskegee Experiment, ww2, Vietnam, 911, the tsunami in the far pacific, or Katrina, or Sandy which I experience myself, or when Trayvon Martin was killed, or Mr Ki-Suck Han when after being pushed off a subway platform, was killed by a train while people watched?

Questions arise more and more about the state of the world and this invisible deity called “GOD” (by many other names as well), but no real answers! Two- thousand years and climbing… the same shit that was going on then is going on now. The truth is that god is never around when tragedy hits! When will humanity realize the suffering in this world is completely caused by people, and can be ended by people. Is it going to take everyone on the planet to be in total misery until we wake up and realize WE are the ones responsible for the condition of the earth and stand up in our misery to change self and take responsibility. I have heard many people say including myself, that if I had the money and power, I would change the way people live for the better. Well the ones that have the money and power refuse to do shit, except continue trying to get more money and use the working class to get it.

Every week people line the seats of synagogues, mosque, churches, cathedrals, etc., and it amounts to nothing when the same things happen week after week. God has never ended murder, he has never ended starvation, rape, kidnapping, genocide, poverty, enslavement, abuse, brutality, etc. What the fuck is god’s purpose if he can’t do shit about the place he is believed to have created? If anyone believes that a god is going to save them from this world or after death, you are FUCKED! If we as humanity continue in the direction we are going, we are all FUCKED! SHEEPLE! The iGod… as real as the fruit on a Mac computer! Pray that you escape the coming tragedies that we have created… Hope for the best… Have faith in your god… And when he fails you, I expect the phone lines to be overloaded on 12/22/2012… I can’t wait…

Day 9 – REAL HUMANITARIANS

Today I met with a friend at Au Bon Pain, and after she left, I checked out the vendors at Union Square, then had a bite to eat at Whole Foods, while discussing with my fiancee,  how we are going to support ourselves coming up next month if we don’t have employment. This is a huge concern for us because we all have to be able to stabilize ourselves before we can really participate in assisting ourselves or anyone else. Tons of people are displaced now and still have no power or heat, and its a disaster by any other name. I stopped at a Radio Shack then headed for the subway to go home, and on any given day u see people sitting next to buildings, trying to stay warm and attain some change from passing people. I saw a young guy sitting down, who obviously had met with some type of scenario that he has to be on the street.

On the internet now is an NYPD officer getting praise for buying boots, and PUTTING THEM ON THE FEET OF A HOMELESS GUY WITH NOT SOCKS OR SHOES. It was cold that night and this officer did what he would have wanted for himself, in the moment without thinking about if he should do it or not. What makes this interesting is the support the officer is getting from many people for helping this homeless guy, but almost no one can tell a story of themselves actually doing something when they are able and see someone that needs attention. People say “If there were more people like this officer…”, but who is it going to be? It could be you and me and anyone who has to give. It is amazing how we always wish for shit to just happen but we will not participate ourselves. Its always up to the “OTHER GUY” to do something but we all exist here in this city, and on this planet. I have dropped dollars and even $20 bill on the homeless years ago when I had some money and work etc. I always saw homeless people as myself and I have been homeless and could be facing it again in a few weeks. There is no purpose for anyone to be out in the cold while others watch bullshit on TV in a warm house. I would be willing to trade places with homeless people so they can have at least one decent nights sleep in a warm place. I have experienced being out in the cold riding trains from uptown to downtown, falling asleep in McDonald’s… It is cold tonight, 40 degrees Fahrenheit, and windy.

This is just one reason why we have to put in place a new system so these type of atrocities will end. We take so much for granted everyday when we buy clothes to look good, and eat comfort food while having a personal relationship with our iPhone, that we use to search for a hot date and whatever our self interest can conjure up. It is very unfortunate that this city is quickly adjusting the playing field to eliminate all poor and useless people which include myself and others I know. The way things are headed right now in NYC, it will eventually be international students, asians, and wealthy white people with just enough latinos, and blacks to serve them. Many people hate the truth but have no heart to face it to make a change. Now that poverty has kissed the face of many middle class people, the security and trust that was influenced by having money is now “QUESTIONABLE”. WE ALL HAVE MADE THIS A REALITY! There is noone to blame, just taking responsibility for our individual participation in this current system that only supports capitalism at the expense of the working poor and middle class so the RICH can stay in power.  This POWER can also be used to change the current condition of this world, but this world is only a toy to the elite, who play with economies, religion, education, governments etc., causing many to suffer abuse, death, poverty, sickness, etc. It is easy to feel separated from these things when we are comfortable but we all have and continue to contribute to this current system until we take a definitive stand within ourselves to look and see how we participate in this world and how we can stop ourselves and become responsible, self-honest beings. No easy at all but there is no other option.