Who wants to live in a nice house, on a nice block, in a nice part of town, with nice people, with a nice car, and nice stores in the neighborhood? What kind of neighbors do we want? Who are the nice people, and where do they live? When we say that’s a nice house, what do we mean? When we say nice people, who are we referring to? When we say a nice neighborhood, who lives there?

Most bad neighborhoods have blacks and latinos, and some poor whites right? Most bad people are the ones who occupy prisons and local jails right? Most bad parts of towns have liquor stores, chinese take out, korean hair shops, laundromats, etc. right? When we look for new homes, who are we looking for to be our neighbors? It is common that “BAD”… equals “MONEYLESS”… and “NICE”… equals “MONEY”…

These are our definitions, all brought about based on who has money and who doesn’t. We do not choose whether we are born into money or not, but we choose to ignore what we have created in the name of money! Now that we have gotten acquainted with the “BAD” people, and we have the image of those people playing in our heads right now… Lets meet the “EVIL” ones! It is I who sit in front of this computer screen, it is you who clicked on the link to read this, it is us who can take a shower when we feel dirty, it is all who have the luxuries of flushing toilets and running water. It is ME as the manifested system I participate in and enjoy these things that most of the world have not! I am evil by participation in the system that does not support all as one as equal as life, and what is best for all. Every day I am realizing how evil I really am, and the ones who have what I have and more. I do not have money, but I have these luxuries, and yes they are luxuries if most don’t have them… So one thing left to do, and that is take responsibility for my evil participation and help to bring about a new system that will support all life equally and to created a world that is best for all! What is best for all is best for me!

No judgment, shame, regret, etc. should stop us from making this a reality, and it is within myself that I stop my internal participation in the system and when I am able to stand and direct myself as the principle of what is best for all, to do so as I support others to do the same, until it is done and no evil exist in any way, but only good as lived practically by every human here!


Internal Hidden Machine

What makes us tick? Is it a hidden ticker that prompts us to do everything we participate in? Is there some higher power that moves us according to unknown, unseen mysterious, purpose and secret planning? This is the reality for some as they completely accept who they are and their experience as some divine lesson that must be learned through hardship and loss!

I have participated in these things and still do, but I am aware that something has to change and that who I am in this world is where I have started. There is a power in us that runs shit and only because we gave it power over us and it is at the core of every action we take this is not self directed within the principle of what is best for all of us. FEAR is the king of humanity, love is just a symptom of fear… I can feel this fear is the strangest scenarios, even ones that I never really felt fear before! I know fear is expanding inside of me slightly, but I know I have to face it when it becomes so great that I may consider hiding from it! One of my greatest experiences this far was finding a friend of mine dead hanging from her loft, after killing herself… I went and stood where she died everyday for weeks until my fear was not enough to make my heart beat out of my chest… Desteni and these tools help me face my fear and get past that experience in 2009, it was basically one year after my first written self-forgiveness entry 8/26/2008. I see that I will be getting to know mr. FEAR much more personal as I continue in my process!

Symbols Of The Eyes!

A question to ask is not why, but how… How did I get here, as who I am? I am as the allowed manifestation of the mind as self. How did I as a being become nothing more than an energetic symbol of a programmed construct? I am questioning my own allowed existence, like “How did I create myself to be nothing?”… How did I begin? I notice that what I see with my eyes is actually three dimensional shapes and symbols, some of which I have conscious reactions to and others, unconscious reactions. Take a woman for example… Long curvy legs, perky breasts, rounded butt, curved hips etc. These are all shapes which are compiled from symbols interpreted by me through my own eyes. It seems that everything is just symbols that I react to and I realize I don’t have any control over what I like or don’t like that I see. In a world where everyone is reacting to different symbols, it becomes a network of friction as everyone is focused only on what they see and like! I am missing what is really here. How does a certain car capture my interest? Shapes, lines, curves, just like a woman, so it is quite extensive how much of my everyday life is based on illusion of my own eyes. What I see are images and symbols and not the real reality! I am HERE but I haven’t realized myself here because I still have thoughts, emotions, & feelings, & memories!

Regular Scheduled Programming

We all exist within and as the mind conscious system, which is pre-programmed to operate withing a certain frequency range and automation. Within this reality we have those who live day to day just trying to get by whether they are enjoying life or not. The daily regiment, shower, eat, work, play, sleep, etc. We have many forms of distractions called entertainment, which is effective in its design. Radio, Television, games, sports, religion, and many others. I am specifically going to elaborate on one or two items here. Also withing this reality we have those who don’t just live day by day trying to get by, but live to stay in power as they continue to dry up resources and economic systems. Television or T-ELEVATED-VISION, is a manufactured device that shows images designed by those in the know to manipulate how we think. They understand that the mind records things and files them away for later use. Have we ever considered why all television shows, contain either VIOLENCE, SEX, DRUGS, or LOVE, FANTASY, COMEDY… The first three representing the emotion of humankind, and the second represents the feeling of humankind. You will have many layers of polarity around this, as some will enjoy the action-violence, hardcore films, and others will enjoy the comedy, love, fantasy shit! Lion King, or Blade? The shows designed for kids, also contain the same polarity just dimmed out by animated characters and bright colors and specific music that fits the type of show.

The superfriends was a show from the early ’70’s into the ’80’s that connected power with goodness as the good guys always won in the end… not necessarily now as many films have the good guys retreating! Kids see this and it fuels a desire to have some type of power over something, and still be good, that they will use what is available to achieve this. TV is also a tool of marketing because what is seen is also desired and so many images are put before us that we don’t even realize that we saw something because it was just a flash that is much faster than the blink of an eye that most will not catch it. I have watched some movies in the past that I noticed a quick flash in a particular scene so I go back and do a frame by frame and “WTF”… an image of something that has nothing to do with the movie but was placed there by someone who participates in that. It was just one frame of theĀ  29.97 frames per second of standard NTSC video. They even tell us that the scheduled programming will commence at a given time… and yes it is programming at the station, but the programming is happening with us when we watch without awareness.

Then we as kids grow up living out the violence, and irresponsible sex, drugs, jail, etc. and the polarity of it as living out a beautiful relationship of puppy love, and high school sweetheart fantasy, and possibly being a class clown, neither of which is capable of addressing the real issues here because, we are existing as a programmed reality instead of seeing REALITY as what it is and being responsible for it.

In the U.S. just about every home has at least one TV whether it’s a big plasma HD or an old analog picture tube with a converter box. We have been programmed to allow programming. It is a complete fuck up, but there is a way to stand up within a world of manifested pre-programmed designs, and that is focusing on breath as a start.